Here i am sitting down inside of my car. I'm not sure where this writing is going but i'll tell u one thing. I feel weird. Im not sure how to explain it. I feel numb and somewhere inside me, I feel super down. I mean im not complaining on how life treats me at the moment. In fact, im grateful of living. Im proud of all the accomplishments i have accomplished so far. But, i dont know why, i feel empty. I dont know why. My heart aches when i see those long messages in my email disscussing things related to studying in Netherlands. Im sick and tired of how i am able to accomplish so much but not able to take those chances. It is pitiful to be in this state. I hate it. I wish i wasn't so down. But maybe, just maybe. There's something better waiting for me up ahead. Maybe, just maybe. I was meant to sit in this car ride right now. Maybe, just maybe. I was meant to stay in Jakarta for university from the very begining. I guess it is enough blabblering for the night. See you soon.
My name is Raihana. I am 18 years old and currently living in Jakarta, Indonesia. I was also born and raised here in Jakarta. This blog represents the things that I do in my daily life. I've been inspired by a lot of people. I have met the greatest and the worst people and I look up to a lot of people. So enjoy!